I'm not sure if people know this, but today's suicide awareness day. To me, personally, this is a very important day because I almost committed suicide. I'm not one of those people that's all like "oh yeah it totally gets better," because not all people are like that, actually I think the people who say that are lying to themselves. For me it took a lot of time and thinking to be able to get a better view on things, I'm talking about almost a year to get one inch closer to happiness, to have a little optimism. I'm not saying that I'm "cured" or "better" or whatever, I still get shit and bitched at and there's still depression in me but, not a